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NOooo - No 'Post Men' have been to see me, nor have they returned, so don't read too much into the title before you read the rest! (I don't wish neither - Post Men were never MY thing) I'm talking of 'Post Menstrual Tension'! (read my 'Pre-or Post' post!) Again, 3 days AFTER my P. Now, I wont go all melodramatic on you here, because I'm not tired, and don't feel any what crappy. I actually feel and look pretty good, and I'm still very much 'H&H' ! (again, see previous 'H&H' post!) its the emotional side of things today - and I must say, that for a good few hours today, PostMT proper bitch slapped me!
I'm sitting here now telling you this and laughing. Laughing because it seems funny now, even though it definitely weren't funny then, and if you'd have seen the state of me earlier you'd have laughed yourself. What started it all off - my mum went into hospital today for a small op on her foot. Just after midday I rang the hospital to check that the op went well and that she was OK. she was in only to be told that a 'few women had returned from surgery and were all in the recovery room, but they couldn't yet tell me how MY mum was because they didn't know WHICH ladies it were exactly that were in recovery' (?!) and for me to 'ring back in an hour' and they would let me know then!!!! ........ Say no more.
I am also very definitely A WOMAN! and I enjoy it too! Despite everything we gotta go through, hormone hell and all the rest of it, I am female and PROUD!
To all you other 'very definitely' women out there - who have found my new blog and are
(I hope) enjoying reading it and able to identify with everything I have spoken about - THANK YOU for taking the time to read! Please leave comments! Say whatever you want to say - Agree with me, disagree with me, tell a tale or two, or just rant about whatever you feel like ranting about. Share YOUR stories.
J X
WTF - ITS OFFICIAL. I am Wonder Woman. Yes. ME. In fact - WE, US, ALL of us women are WONDER WOMEN! Why it's taken me so long to realise this, I'll never know!? My body has become Hormoneville - a haven for 'fiends' who mess with me physically & emotionally - mostly crappy, sometimes not so bad, but definitely always there! Sometimes they win and I admit defeat, sometimes they lose, and I'm the winner, but all at the same time, and whichever way I'm thrown, shaken or turned upside down (or if Im lucky, just left standing upright) I'm still able to do what I do ....... be a great MUM, a hot ass WIFE, a kind loving DAUGHTER, a concerned supportive BIG SISTER, a caring GRANDAUGHTER, a smiley DAUGHTER-IN-LAW, a great FRIEND, a well mannered COLLEAGUE, a nice NEIGHBOUR (need I go on) and all the while, whilst Im being ALL of the above things, I still manage to deal with a load of hormone fiends, and somehow....somehow.... still manage to be a WONDER-FUL WOMAN!?!?!
Took me all of 5 minutes to get that off my chest - Phew!
To all the rest of you WONDER WOMEN out there....salute yourselves!
J X
If you haven't yet been to see' Eat, Pray, Love' then more the fool you. I'm Kidding of course, but No -seriously - I really recommend you go see it sometime soon. Definitely gets the 'Thums Up' from me. I think all women (and men alike) will enjoy. (MY hubby did and I KNOW my little sister will too - sometimes a film magnifies life - SHE will know what I mean). We've not long returned from watching it ourselves and I'm now sitting with a glass of good red wine (Italian of course = Rome = Italy!) and wanting to tell you what I thought of it!. As mentioned in my previous post ('A Life less Ordinary') the book, on which this film is based, is a favourite of mine, and I was (as I always am when a good book gets made into a movie) quite sceptical as to whether it would be any good. Did I like it? I did. Loved it.
It's my little boy's 5th birthday today!. (Happy Birthday baby!) I also have my monthly friend visiting for a few days (!?) So today.............I am Happy & Hormonal!!
Yes -H & H! You read it right - and you're probably thinking "Wot? "Happy AND Hormonal? Nah. Not possible. How can you be HAPPY if your HORMONAL?!. Duh - Liar"
Well - you CAN. Being hormonal doesn't ALWAYS mean feeling down or crappy or wotnot. Sometimes you can feel overly emotional or subdued but in a nice kind of 'dont-mind-feeling-like-this' way. In fact, for the first month out of many - I feel and look GREAT! (My mojo's back! - and I'm on a P as well! Not bad eh!). Normally at this time of the month I'd be really feeling it. The IT I'm talking about is the whole shebang. The feeling like crap and looking like crap, the pains, sore boobs and and in general, just wanting to sleep for a day or 2 and wake up to find above mentioned 'friend' has left me a note; 'Been and now gone. Thanks again for letting me stay...see you again in 4 weeks'. Its ironic - It's only since giving birth to my son did I enter Hormoneville. At first I hated it.
I DEFY any woman who says that she has not, at some point throughout her life, felt 'lost'. Now, when I say 'lost' I mean a feeling of unhappiness or unfulfillment, and not being quite sure where you're headed or knowing where it is that you want to be in your life. You may be unhappy in your marriage or relationship or stuck in a job that brings nil personal satisfaction and has no future prospects, or it may me something totally different, and not one reason in particular except YOU JUST WANT MORE - Simple as that. Life has many different paths, and sometimes the ones we choose to take don't always end up the way they cracked up to be.
Me, and MY life - I'm feeling lucky. Very lucky in fact. I'm now settled at a good place. Actually, it's the best. I'm happy and fulfilled and I don't feel 'lost'. Don't get me wrong, I HAVE though, been there - lost. It's not a very nice place to be and I've no intention of going back! I have a wonderful hubby, a beautiful son, a close loving family, and great friends. I'm in good health, as are my family, and for that, and all of the above, I am grateful! I'm on the right path in my life, and it's the one I intend to stay on (god willing!) I'm now, officially, where I am MEANT TO BE! (Halle-fucking-lujah!)
'MOJO'.
No, I'm not talking about those little penny sweets you could buy in the corner shop (80's childhood anyone?) - nor am I talking about a new pop duo who's name is made up of the first 2 letters of their first names (think Mo and Johnny) The 'Mojo' I'm talking of is much more special. It's that little thing, that little spark, that little bit of magic that makes a person feel good. In fact, on a good day, and with mojo firmly intact, one feels effing fantastic! But, and as with most good things - they sometimes get lost, and when a mojo 'goes missing' - things SUCK. (I lost mine last week - and still waiting for the MoFo to come back)
Now - Imagine this. Imagine NEVER losing your mojo. Imagine waking up EVERY morning feeling utterly energetic, with glowing skin, shiny hair and a body that looks and feels - ooohh..mighty fine! Yee-haw! You feel great, look great, you're walking the walk and talking the talk. You can take on the world and her mother, and NOTHING CAN STOP YOU! Yeah...??! - DREAM ON. None of us are THAT lucky. You feel like crap. Probably look like crap (definitely speaking for myself here) The flood gates open, and you are weighed down underneath. The zits come out to play, the 'boob band' bangs its drums sending throbbing pain along the way, your gums ache (mine do), hips ache (mine do) mind races (mine does) belly balloons, you cant sleep, don't eat, can't eat, eat too much - need I go on. The list is endless. In a nutshell you feel like shit. All that feel good attitude you had disappears quicker than you can say 'remember The Secret'!
I'd like to introduce you to a very good friend of mine - Agnus Castus. (A.K.A = AGGY CASSY to myself & hubby) Now Aggy - she's NOT a SHE, nor is she a HE. Aggy is in fact a herb. (Also known as Vitex, Chaste Tree, Chasteberry or Monks Pepper. It is a native of the Mediterranean region) I first came across Aggy over 18 months ago after deciding that enough was enough when I began to feel afraid of the hormones that seemed to be taking over my body. Natural remedies were the preferred route of my choice so I did the usual net rooting, focusing my search mainly on women's health - PMT & Hormone Imbalances (apparently - and since the birth of my son - my hormones have never 're-balanced') Now...before I go any further, my body is not, and has not been for many many years, influenced by any other hormone - except my own - I guess this means that I am in a 'natural' hormone state and do not have any artificial hormones around my body that I would have if I were taking the contraceptive pill/coil. This also means that the same hormones have a free rein of my body and can do as they please, when they sodding well please. Now, some will say that this is a good thing - everything being 'au natural' and all that doodah, and some will say I'm mad, and question why I didn't just get some 'help' and let my hormones be controlled (manipulated & coerced into doing something they don't want to!) I guess it's all personal choice really - we are all different, and what works for some doesn't always work for others.
Anyway - back to Aggy...........I started taking the recommended dose as soon as I stepped out of Holland & Barrett. Now I won't lie - I was expecting a miracle of some sort....I expected to jump out of bed the next morning full of beans and without a niggle of doubt about ANYTHING and EVERYTHING. Did this happen?
'Post Menstrual Tension' - does this really exist? I think so. No....I take that back - I dont THINK so - I KNOW so. Whatever happened to just PRE menstrual tension?. The reason I say - things my end seem to have shifted, and now instead of feeling a bit premenstrual PRIOR to having my P, I seem to be feeling it POST! It's now 3 days since I said 'Au Revoir' to my monthly friend (yes - NOT Goodbye, as said 'friend' most definitly will be back, give or take 3 to 4 weeks. Now I would normally be spot on day 28 but lately and more so toward my 39yrs of age, has been making it's own mind up and visiting unannounced - 'Hellllooooo Honey - Im back'! (are you? well your 3 days bloody early'! - scuse the pun).
